Day by Day

We are still making it, hoping to get a surgery date this week or by next week for sure. Looks to be mid March which will be fine. I hate the little set backs we keep having but sometimes we need to be slowed a bit. I've asked for patience, strength, and I've gotten both. I've managed to once again, slow down, enjoy the ride. I had to have a talk with Gage the other night, he's extra bored, extra ADHD, extra OCD, since the ci removal. In fact my nurse today (I have asthmatic bronchitis) asked me "he's a little OCD isn't he?" Not in a derogatory way, just noted it. He NEEDED to move her pushpin that held up a poster, they weren't even **smile** Anyway, back to Gage needing a "talk". Brook came to me and said "Gage hates me, I know he does." This is after she's already noted his aggressive behavior w/out his ci. I sat them down, we all three cried. He's been nicer/calmer ever since. I explained that things may not seem fair right now. He had his ci removed, he's not getting to hear the songs on the radio, he's not getting to go to school, but it's all temporary. Things will go back to normal for us soon. And if not, we'll create a better, newer normal. But I asked him to be nicer to his sister, and the look on his face was all I needed to shed a few tears. He knows he's not himself, but he can't help it. That's what I tried to explain to Brook. So far, we've all gotten along much better. And here's to my patience and my strength. I have to ask for it everyday!